MOM PLEASE LISTEN TO ME / SELMA FLYNN (friend) Mom, please listen to me
As I take time to write
I see parents struggling daily
Their pain is such a fight.
All of us who have gone on
And left the rest of you behind
We're ok, Mom, I promise
Heaven is beautiful, and God is kind.
You used to tell me that one day
God Would call and take you home
You told me you'd make me strong
So I would stand tall when alone.
But things happen sometimes, Mom
That does not go in our plans
I wasn't scared, Mom
When God held out his hand.
I didn't want to leave you
I didn't have time to say good bye
When the angels said, "Come with us"
There wasn't time to question why.
I've watched you daily, Mom
It hurts to see you cry
I don't want you to be unhappy
Just because we didn't get to say good bye.
Tell the others what I'm telling you
So many parents need to know
That Earth was just a lay over
We had another place to go.
I know you miss me, Mom
I know your heart was broken in two
But God really needed me
Because my earthly life was through.
I'm always alongside you
I smile and touch your hair
I whisper "Mom, I love you"
You just can't see me there.
I'm the one who gently touches you
On your shoulder when you're sad
I'm happy now that you finally found
God again, and are no longer mad.
Tell the parents, Mom, for me
that all of us kids are okay
God had plans for our lives
When he called us home that day.
I love you, Mom, I always will
And remember I'm not far away
We're going to be together
When God calls out your name.
My Sweet Harley, It has been awhile since I have written you, I have been lighting candles and been working on your memorial site. I have met a very nice Mother named Judie that has lost her son Craig, which by the way I hope you have met him, anyway Judie has put a beautiful song on your site for me and she is going to put some more. I truly appreciate her help as I am just learning how to use this computer and the music part is very confusing. Sweet Harley, their are so many parent's that have lost a child, the pain is unbearable, it leaves a hole in a Heart that can never be mended. No matter what the cause of death, our child has been taken from us and no one's life can ever be the same. Some days I wish I was not here, it is very hard to keep on going and maybe that is selfish of me because I have Johnny and Nicole, but I can't help what I feel. Nicole and I have been arguing as she said to me:You have changed since Harley died, I told her I have only changed in the way I feel about life and death, I have not changed in the way I feel about her or Johnny, they are also my children and I need them just as much as they need me. Our lives can never be as we knew it,I muddle through each day doing what I have to do to get by, I feel like I am not living, just existing each day, my life died the night you died, maybe that is selfish to all that I love or all that love me, but I can't help it, I feel this way. Johnny has been in a self destructive attitude, but I think and hope that he is out of that now, I am seeking counseling for him as he is trying to deal with the guilt of this accident, the reality that you are never coming back has hit him so very hard, you were always there for Johnny and he is so lost without you. He is my son also and I love him with all my Heart and it hurts me to see the pain, guilt and loneliness that he is going through so I think counseling is what he needs, I feel if he does not get help he will surely destroy himself to escape from the pain and guilt of this accident. Johnny was arrested on December 13, 2004 and charged with the accident, I don't know why it took them 10 months, but James is also being charged as he grabbed the steering wheel and made the car turn a sharp right over towards the embankment. Why he did that I don't know. Yes, I get angry because all of the plans changed, you, Johnny and Jason were supposed to go and I know everything would have been allright if the plan had stayed that way. Why did you wait for James? Why did he have to go? What was so important in Mike's duffle bag that you all had to go that Sunday? There were to many of you kids in Shelia's car, it was way to small for all you big boys. I know in my Heart that if someone had been able to get to you and given you CPR, you would have made it, but the car was to small and you were trapped in it. How did Drew end up under the trunk of the car? So many questions that I will never have the answer for. Harley,I am at my wits end, I have lost my oldest son and now my youngest son is being charged for the death of his Brother and also for the injuries that their best friend received. I just don't know how much more heartache I can handle, I don't know what will happen in Court, but I do know that everyday Johnny will have to live the rest of his life with the guilt and pain of your death and Drew's injuries, that in itself is punishment. I can not blame one son for the other son's death, as I know that this was not intentional, this was an accident. Yes, I do get angry because you boys never saw danger and thought nothing could ever happen to you, it's your age that makes you feel that way. All I can do is pray and hope that everything will turn out for the best. So My Sweet Harley, I will go for now and write you later, I have been going out to visit you and even though I know that you are not there, I feel better for a few minutes when I go and see you. My Precious Harley, You Are Always In My Thoughts And Forever In My Heart!!! I Love You And Miss You Every Moment Of Every Day!!! Love, Momma xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
I TOO LOST MY SON / Felicia Gomez (passerby) MY DEEPEST CONDOLENCES TO THE PARENTS OF HARLEY, i too lost my only child jonboy..to a violent murder..he was taken frm..me on oct 30, 2003...its going to be 2 yrs ..n the case is still open .although i cant talk about the case to much ..i will let u know this ..he was murdered by his childs mother n brother ..how do u explain that to your child ..know matter how someone loses ..a love ..it hurts ..the pain will never go away...losing someone in a car accdnt or being murdered ..to me is the same ..there life was taken frm them ..they didnt asked to leave ..but rest a sure ..i know ..your son ..is an angel ....he must of drove the girls crazy ...with those beautiful eyes n gorgeous smile ..may god bless u and remember ..god...always ..takes ...his angels .back home ...(to harley rip darling angel ..and have the angels ...smile down on those that love u and where left behind )
Letter ~~~~~~~ / Diane Cassidy- Angel Mom-Katie To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say. But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay. I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above. Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love. Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight. Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night. That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through. God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you. It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on. There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man." God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do. And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you. And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight. God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night. When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years. Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears. But do not be afraid to cry: it does relieve the pain. Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned. If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand. But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er. I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before. There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb; But together we can do it by taking one day at a time. It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too; That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you. If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain; Then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain." And now I am contented....that my life was worthwhile. Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile. So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low; Just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street and you've got Me on your mind; I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind. And when it's time for you to go....from that body to be free. Remember you're not going.....you're coming here to Me.
I know your pain / Melissa Smith (grieving Mom)
Did the angels come from heaven to help you through that night Did they feel your terror And take away your fright
Did the angels bear the pain That was being done to you Did they hear your cries of fear And stayed to help you through
Did the angels hold you tightly The way I would of done Did they know how I would feel And wish they were the one
Did the angels cry out loudly For the unjustness of your plight Did they call Lord Jesus And lead you to the light
Did the angels softly kiss your cheek Before you took your leave Did they remind you how I loved you so And forever more I'd grieve
Did the angels whisper in your ear Don't worry you will not go alone Did they know part of me went with you The day God called you home
So much Pain! / Shirley Gemma's Mum (moms uk friend ) Beverley Just wanted to say what a beautiful site you have created for Harley...I know this is all us moms can do now for our children as part of our every day lives... from the moment our children are born we we have such immense unconditional Love for them and would do anything throughout their growing years to protect them from what ever life throws at them...
the day they are taken from our lives is such an overwhelming unbelievable pain that you could never ever imagine you could experience let alone live with... but we do we have no choice... Life can never ever be the same.. you and I can never ever be the same...
I know you are feeling just as i am something us mothers all have in common no matter where in the world we live.. whatever our Beliefs... we all have this one feeling that is the same.. and that is the Pain in hearts that will continue forever... we did not bring our children into this world to see them leave it before us... You raised a most Handsome son in Harley... your special much loved son....
I'm so sorry.... / Eva Bates (Mom to 2 angels ) What a tragic loss! I'm am so so sorry. I can understand your pain as I lost my babies within 4 months of one another. Our stories are different, but losing a child is the worst a parent can ever go thru. Harley seemed like a wonderful son and I am so saddened for you. Just know that Harley is watching over you and your family and will be a part of you forever. Keep the faith and hope that you will see your son again, and you will never have to say goodbye ever. God bless you and give you comfort thru this most difficult journey in life.
Wishing you....... / Diane Cassidy- Angel Mom-Katie Wishing you Peace to bring comfort
Courage to face the days ahead
Harley's Loving Memories to forever hold in your hearts!!
May your heart be filled with Harley's love / Sarah Landron's Mom (a new friend ) I am so sorry your son Harley is so handsome. Thank-you for visiting Sarh' site and your kind words. I pray for peace and compassion from those around you. Hold tight to yor memories and may you always feel the embrace of your son. Butterfly kisses.
Found pennies / Nathan's Mom Beverly, I hate this pain that we go through each day. I think of Harley daily wondering what it would be like to meet him. I know he's showing Nathan the ropes. Harley had just a few more years on him. I'm sending this poem in hopes that it will make you feel better when you see a penny lying on the ground....