||Missing My Harley
My Sweet Harley,
I love you & miss you so much, life is lonely without you, I feel like I'm waiting for you to come home, I don't think I will ever get over feeling this way. I went to see you Sunday, as I always do, I used to like Sunday's, but everything seems to happen on Sunday, first Nicole hurts her leg on Sunday, then we lost you on a Sunday night & our lives were forever changed. I remember telling you on the morning on the 8th, I was going grocery shopping & you said good "buy some different ice cream & get the pizza with the cheese in the crust, I bought them especially for you, but you never came back home to eat them. Everything goes over & over in my head & you are always in my thoughts. I think what was so important in that duffle bag that you had to go then? We are all hurting, all I have left of you are my memories & pictures, they are beautiful memories & pictures, but we want you here with us!!!! I ask God "what have I done to deserve this?" Harley, If I could have had a choice I would have gone in your place. I am 49 & have lived my life, you were 21 & your life was just beginning & had so much to live for. Life just isn't fair!!!!
Why does God have to take our children? Your room is how you left it, Johnny has been sleeping in there since the accident. Harley, you brought such joy & happiness into my life, you were always such a good boy, kind, loving, considerate & thoughtful I ask God "Why."
I feel so robbed & cheated, I will never get to give you a hug & kiss, never get to ask you how your day went, never get to see you get married & have children & to enjoy your life. I feel so empty inside, but as each day passes, it brings me closer to seeing your beautiful smile!!! I know I was so overprotective with you, Johnny & Nicole, I tried to keep you all safe & from harm. A Mother gives birth, loves, nutures, protects her child, & in one split second her world turns into a living hell. There is no pain & heartache that can ever compare to holding your child's lifeless body in your arms. Dan goes to the cemetery with me sometimes, but he starts to cry & he gets upset, all you kids were like his own. I remember the time he would take out of his busy day to help you with the clutch on your truck, & to show you & Johnny how to do a brake job, he enjoyed helping you boys with your vehicles. I drive myself crazy asking "Why?" Why not me? You had so much to give, you made an impact on a lot of people's lives & touched so many Hearts!!! You are loved & missed by so many!!!
I hope you like this new memorial site, I just fell in love with it, it has so much more to offer, we can light a candle in memory of you & the pictures are presented really nice, I truly love it & I know you will to, this is an everlasting memorial so we can log on & read it anytime.I am truly honored & proud for the young man you turned out to be!!!! You made such a difference in so many people's lives, you will never be forgotten!!!!
When I am feeling lonely & sad I read the entries that everybody has written , it gives me great pleasure & comfort to know that you are so loved & missed!!!
I am thankful that in your short 21 years with us you had fun in your life & had many good times, but I'm selfish, maybe God wanted you now, but I wanted you more!!!!
I was talking to a woman named , Shirley who lost a 20 year old daughter named ,Gemma, due to a car accident, tell her she is loved & missed by all who knew her. I know with your awesome personaliy & beautiful smile that you will meet her & become friends!!
Well, My Precious Harley, Until next time.........
I Love You & Miss You Every Moment Of Every Day!!!!!!
You Are Always In My Heart & Thoughts!!!!!!!
Love, Momma xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo